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Hit and run

Pam’s Journey – Day 21

Miles walked: 50

Miles remaining: 950

Days remaining: 344

Last week, I was walking around my neighborhood with Tasha and we happened upon a pile of bricks and then another pile of bricks. The second pile was spread all out into the street. We stopped and talked to some kids that were looking at it from across the street and they said a little silver car had swerved all over their street and took out the 2 mailboxes and just kept going. He left a piece of his headlight cover and a trail of antifreeze.  We’re not just talking about a mailbox, we’re talking about the big, almost as tall as me, bricked up mailboxes with the planters on the side type of mailboxes… and he just kept going.

How does someone do that? Does he know if the mailboxes were the only things he hit? There are always kids in the streets in my neighborhood, especially right after school when this happened. There are usually lots of walkers, joggers, mom’s with babies in strollers, etc.. Does he know what kind of damage he did? Does he have a conscience?

I’ve seen the mailboxes, A.K.A. “pile of bricks”, every morning on my walks. One was picked up and rebuilt immediately but the other is still just a pile of bricks by the curb. Every time I see it, I think about how someone could be so careless and reckless to damage someone’s property without even blinking. Then it started bothering me in a different way. Something happened last week and has been eating at me. I did a Hit and Run, verbally.

How did that happen? I’m the quiet, calm, relaxed person that doesn’t get upset and yell like a crazed parent. I’m the one people call when they need a voice of reason, when they need calmed down.. I’m like “the cooler” (Roadhouse – Patrick Swayze), the one that people call when they can’t keep their cool. So, what happened to me? Yup.. I had a “mad momma moment” and said something that I immediately regretted. I said it to my daughter as we were arguing. She was on the phone with her boyfriend, we were having a “difference of opinion about her attitude”, and I said something about him that I shouldn’t have said. It was tense, voices were raised, and it wasn’t nice. Words hurt.

I apologized to him later. It wasn’t well received and I still felt terrible that I had said it. What to do…What to do? I prayed. Prayed that the young man that I had verbally assaulted would know that he didn’t deserve that from me. Prayed that it wouldn’t have lasting effects on him. Prayed that God would hold him close and weigh heavy on his heart to not turn away from Him. Just prayed about it.. a lot.

Over the next few days, I noticed a bad trend of Facebook posts from my victim. I couldn’t help but feel somewhat responsible for his change in attitude. Unfortunately, I’m not the only person that has verbally abused this young man. It happens frequently at home. I was witness, by phone, to a verbal assault on him a few weeks ago and it was terrible. Since hearing the things that were said to him regularly, I had been trying to rebuild him and ended up crushing him – just like those mailboxes.

This morning I got a surprise message on Facebook.. an apology from the boy that has been so constant on my mind. He had given up but asked God for another chance at 8:10 this morning. He knows that God is always there for him and he’s ready to live the God life. I can’t tell you how thankful I am for our God. I’m so thankful that he helped clean up my “Hit and Run” and has taught me some life lessons in the process.

James 1:19-20.  19 My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, 20 because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires.

Lesson learned..

We’re blogging life.. real life, 1 step at a time. It’s not always going to be balloon bouquets and rainbows but I think it’s important for us to be real people, even when it’s not easy. Real people mess up, ask for forgiveness, and learn from their mistakes. I know I did.

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Full Disclosure

Pam’s Journey – Day 12

Miles walked: 28

Miles remaining: 972

Days remaining: 353

Just in case you haven’t noticed… I’m not a writer. It’s true. English was my worst subject in school and I have a feeling that my teachers weren’t sad to see me go.  Yeah, I was one of those kids. How can English be my worst subject? Well, I’m sure it had something to do with the Okie vocabulary and way of speaking. Or, maybe it started in 7th grade when I didn’t get adverbs and when I asked my dad about it, he told me that they didn’t have those when he was in school. We’ll just say it’s genetic!

So, I’d like to take a moment to apologize to Mrs. Stuever and Mrs. Jenlink. I pretty much made zero effort in your classes and now here I am regretting it because I’m supposed to be writing in a blog! Go figure.

Since I don’t know many of you personally, I’d like to share some things about me since we’re either on this journey together or you’re following the journey with us. Plus, I hate to feel like I’m talking to Strangers! Here goes…Full Disclosure.

So, anyway: I recently knocked on the door of the big 40 and it grabbed me and sucked me in against all my protests. I love peanut butter and think it should be it’s own food group – it’s a delicacy. I’m afraid of birds.. yes, birds.  Have you ever seen a seagull’s crazy eyes while you’re holding a piece of bread? I think everyone is good.. until they decide not to be. I think that my most important job is raising my daughter to have morals and values that are missing in our world today. I love doing yard work but I don’t own a weedeater – I hate that part of yardwork lol. I have no doubt that God is in control of my flowerbeds because there’s no way I could keep them alive on my own.

That’s just a glimpse, there’s so much more.. I hate to touch raw meat and I don’t eat meat with bones in it, ICK! I have endrollphobia, the fear of running out of toilet paper. I must have 6+ back up rolls in the cabinet or I start feeling anxious. I enjoy CSI type crime shows and hate reality TV. I forget the technical term for it but I have a yes or no, black or white, right or wrong way of looking at things. There is no in between, no gray, no maybe. Apparently, some people think this isn’t a good quality. I have an amazing family, the best parents that I could ever wish for. I love my job but can’t wait to retire and move to the farm to enjoy a more simple life.

I love coffee on my patio, doors and windows open on a rainy day, and the sound of my cat (SlickyBoo) snoring. I was a daddy’s girl growing up, a tomboy. I hated dresses and still don’t care for them much. I don’t like to be told be told that I can’t do something. I love odd, quirky, eccentric and dorky. I don’t take commitments lightly and try not to commit to anything that I’m not 100% sure that I can follow through.

Ok.. now that you know me a little better and I’m not a complete stranger, I would love to know you better! Tell me a little about you as we’re on this journey together. We’ve got a long way to go!

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I’d like a cup of Bold to go..

Pam’s Journey – Day 7

Miles walked: 13

Miles remaining: 987

Days remaining: 358

The OKC Prayer Walk was AWESOME! It wasn’t at all what any of us expected.. it was so much more. It was way out of our comfort zone but exactly where we needed to be. As Kristen and Tasha have described in their blogs this week, it was simply an amazing thing.  Truly Inspiring.  Life Changing.

BOLDNESS isn’t one of my gifts. I can be BOLD about my love to my daughter and family, I can pray BOLDLY in the solitude of my home (not in public..yet), I can show BOLDNESS in my sincere empathy to the patients at my work and in my personal friendships. But to speak BOLDLY, in public, about anything…it is not a natural God given gift. So, to hear a young man (a 16 yr old boy) speak so BOLDLY to strangers in an area of OKC that isn’t known for its welcoming hospitality, it touched me. Deeply.

As we walked NE OKC, handing out bibles and inviting everyone that we came across to the OKC Prayer Walk cookout and worship, I started hearing, “Sir, Sir…Can I interest you in some Jesus today?”. Chris would head across the street, up a driveway, or around a building to hand out his bibles and invite people to come worship.

I’ve only known Chris for a short time, about 3 months. He came into my life as an enemy because he is my daughter’s boyfriend. Every boyfriend is an enemy to an overprotective mom! In the 3 months that I’ve known Chris, he has overcome some big obstacles and has made huge efforts to change his life. He has kicked some addictions – Addictions that he told me he couldn’t quit, couldn’t do it and I didn’t understand how hard it was. Then, the next time I saw him, he had quit. This same boy, this young man, was BOLDLY sharing and introducing strangers to Christ!

How awesome would it be if we could all be so BOLD? That’s my goal…along with walking 1000 miles with Him. I’m praying for BOLDNESS, not just for me but for all Christians to share their Jesus! I don’t think I’m meant to be a BOLD speaker like Christopher; otherwise, God would have given me a voice louder than the clickity click clicking of my keyboard. I believe that I’m meant to be BOLD in my actions. BOLD in raising my daughter to share God with her friends and giving them the encouragement to fight the pressures that are thrown at them every day. BOLD in my supporting role to those who do have the BOLD voice. I think we can all use some BOLDNESS for our God.

We expected the OKC Prayer Walk to be our mile one on this special journey. It was so much more. Our walk has begun. It’s a new thing, a new day, a new walk. It’s a walk with a purpose.. A walk with Jesus. 1000 deliberate miles with Jesus, in 365 days. Today is day 7.

Can I interest YOU in some Jesus today?


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