First light

Pam’s Journey – Day 89

Miles walked: 242

Miles remaining: 758

Days remaining: 277

Sun up.. Sunrise.. Daybreak.. Dawn.. Mornin’.. whatever you call it, that’s my normal walking time. Actually, that’s the end of my walking time. As I’m ending up my walk, I get to see the first rays of a new day. A do-over from yesterday.. a fresh start.. a new beginning..

A brand new day. I love my new days! I get the chance to be better than yesterday, to try harder, and to make a difference. If something was too hard for me to handle yesterday, well guess what? Today is a brand new day!

Something dawned on me last week while I was on vacation.. I seem to be “that person” that people feel they are able to tell all of their worries, problems, complaints, etc… I have no idea why this is but it used to wear on me. It got heavier and heavier every day. Maybe because I’m a “fixer”? I felt the need to try and fix all of those problems, or at least to help them in some way. I came to realize that I am not the fixer. God is. Who knew, right?

Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?  ~ Matthew 6:27

This “giving my worries” to Him thing isn’t as easy as it sounds. It’s taken me years to learn that I have to give them up,  and I still have my days that weigh me down. After every single one of those days, I’m given a new day.. first light.. my do-over. I walk my walk and He’s there waiting for me to hand it over every morning. To just let it go.

whew… Just. Let. It. Go.

 Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you. ~ Peter 5:7

I’ve gotten much closer to my Heavenly Father since I started this journey of 1000 miles. We can talk about anything. I give Him my ideas of acceptable walking weather and He gives me misty rain to tickle my nose the next day (He definitely has a sense of humor!). I recommend that I could walk this walk a little easier if I didn’t hurt every day and He shows me that with Him, I can do anything… including walking through some pain. I ask for guidance with my parenting, and He puts me in contact with kids who don’t have parents and with parents who have kids battling mental and physical handicaps that break my heart. He makes my trials seem so trivial.

I love how my God puts things into perspective for me, if I just ask. If I put my worries, fears, trials, and struggles in His hands. He shows me that my problems are so much smaller than I think they are. He shows me that those problems will not overcome me and that the battle is already won so there really is nothing worth worrying about.

The past few months have shed some light on a lot of areas of my life that I thought I was in control of. I’ve been letting go of this worry weight every day in my walks. Some days I feel a HUGE release, other days I have just a little more spring in my step but I notice that my step is lighter and bouncier and a little quicker than it’s been in a long time. My “southern swag” is almost ridiculously swaggy! I’ve mentioned this before but I must be getting better at it because I’m still just giving it to God.. all of it. Not just my worries and problems but those that everyone shares with me. I’m giving Him their problems. I didn’t realize that I was carrying them for them, trying to fix them for them. I can’t fix them any more than I can fix my kitchen faucet that is in desperate need of some fixin!

Now that I’m not so heavy with life, it seems that things are a little clearer. Those problems and worries that I’ve been letting God deal with, instead of trying to handle them on my own, aren’t quite as big as they were before. The problems seem to almost answer themselves. Crazy weird, I know. I ask for guidance and I feel guided. It’s actually pretty amazing.

It’s funny the things we hear, if we just open ourselves up to Him and listen. This is why I love my walks with Jesus. I walk mostly in the dark, giving Him all I have to give, thanking Him for all He gives to me, and then He gives me light. The first light of a new day. A new day to be better, to try harder, and to make a difference. He gives me that, every single day! He gives it to you too. Have you been walking in the dark? Are you weighed down with worry and troubles? Have you given them away yet? Seriously… Give. Them. Up. 

You’ll never live the same again!

Enjoy the first light of a new day over and over and over…

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths. ~ Proverbs 3:5-6

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