My Beautiful Mess

Pam’s Journey ~ Day: 152

Miles Walked: 382

Miles Remaining: 618

Days Remaining: 214

I have a place where I like to go when I need to get away from everything. Let me rephrase that.. In the spring, summer, and fall, I have a place where I like to go when I need to get away from everything. My backyard. It’s my haven, my sanctuary, my quiet place. I’m not a super gardener but I love to admire the things that I’ve worked hard at getting to grow in my flower beds. I love green grass. I love to sit in my lawn chair, in the sun, eyes closed, and just listen.

On a calm day, I hear the birds and love to imagine their conversations. Whatever it is that they’re talking about, there is a LOT of cackling and laughing going on.. except for the blue jays, it sounds like they’re full of joy. When it’s a little windy out, I close my eyes and the sound of the wind blowing the leaves on my big oak tree actually sounds like waves coming in from the ocean. I LOVE this sound.. if I sit quietly long enough to relax and let go of the tension in my neck and shoulders, I start to feel like I’m sitting on the beach. Listening to the waves. Soaking up some vitamin D. Increasing my risk of skin cancer… I can sit out there for hours.

We have had such a mild winter and it’s really starting to warm up. I find myself getting more and more anxious for my haven (heaven) on earth! I’m going to put down some weed-n-feed this weekend to get rid of the nuisances that are showing themselves around the yard. I picked up some tulips and daffodils to add to my front flower beds and I’m going to add a vertical herb garden to my back fence (possibly an unfinished project just waitin’ to happen!) . I’m really a novice gardener but I love working in the beds, planting and weeding. It’s so gratifying to look at what used to be a flat mess of nothing and see my fractal design shaping and changing every year.

I call it a fractal design because I love how the garden was described in the book, The Shack. It looks like a randomness of plants, shrubs, flowers, and vines but it all works together to make my beautiful mess. Much like the garden in the book, it reminds me of myself and my life.

I have some tough little dianthus and snapdragons that come back bigger and better each year, if I take care of them. I have some prickly rose bushes that tear me up if I don’t watch myself around them. The gladiola are spread throughout the garden because I didn’t think it through how they would get beat up terribly by our Oklahoma wind when I planted them, so I’ve filled in around them with some other things to help support them when the blooms get tall. There are some nice leafy hostas that fill in some of the bare areas and help support those tall gladiola. Then there are my mums that bloom in the spring and the fall, and they get so heavy with blooms that they want to fall apart if I let them get to big for their own good.

So, how am I like my garden? Dianthus – I’m a bright little flower that gets bigger and better, if I take care of myself. Roses – I have been through some prickly times and more often that not, there has been a sweet-smelling reward at the end of those times. Gladiola/Mums – If I let myself get to “big” and have no support, I’ll end up flat on my blossoms.. but with my Jesus and my Godly Gal Pals, I get the support I need to bloom. Hostas – I’m good at filling in and supporting others when needed… I add a little somethin’ somethin’ to those around me. Even the pesky weeds in my gardens have a place in my life. Usually they get yanked up out of the ground but sometimes I have to take the time and dig them out, making sure I get to the root of the problem.

‘This is what the Sovereign LORD says: On the day I cleanse you from all your sins, I will resettle your towns, and the ruins will be rebuilt. The desolate land will be cultivated instead of lying desolate in the sight of all who pass through it. They will say, “This land that was laid waste has become like the garden of Eden; the cities that were lying in ruins, desolate and destroyed, are now fortified and inhabited.” ~ Ezekiel 36:33-35

I can’t do this life on my own. None of us can. We need to be nurtured and tended to. We need pruning and weeding.. and we need support from our God and Jesus to carry us through the hard times. Some days we need to sit in the sun, just soaking Him in. We all need some good godly friends to have our back when we are getting blown over by life. I don’t think you can have too many supportive friends… they help you to keep blooming ;).

Cover of "The Shack"

Cover of The Shack

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