Miles walked: 635
Miles remaining: 365
Days remaining: 116
I hate how when you say you’re not going to do something and that completely sets you up to do the thing that you’re “not going to do”. Yeah… so, of course I did it.
I made something “a thing”.
Something has been going on in my life that is taking up a lot of my time and energy. It has the potential to have me self-employed in less than a year, which is very exciting to me. There is a lot of talk, learning, thinking, planning, and living going into this “thing”. The thing is, I said that I wasn’t going to make it “a thing” that became part of some other things that I do. Crazy, huh?
I didn’t want it to invade some personal parts of my life. This walk with Jesus that has been a huge part of my life for the last 8 months was supposed to be off limits to this new thing. I didn’t want to make my walk less of a priority and let the new thing get out of hand. So, I’ve been doing a lot of praying that I keep it in check and for some serious guidance. It’s safe to say that my walk is AWESOME! It’s even come back around to where I want it to be. I feel God walking this walk with me and encouraging me to keep going and finish this walk so we can see what comes next. Of course He knows, but He hasn’t shared it with me yet!
The other thing that I didn’t want to affect is my Lifegroup. I didn’t want the new thing to become a topic or to take away from the specialness of our group. Putting these words on paper actually make me feel a bit silly that I was so worried about “making a thing out of this thing”.
Now that I’m seeing and re-reading my words, I’m relieved. Those were the only two areas that I was somewhat panicked that my new endeavor would or could change. I have no idea how. I don’t even know what I was thinking but that’s been my worry for the last couple of weeks. This is a look back and laugh moment and also a thank the Lord moment.
For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. ~ Matthew 6:21
So… I treasure my walk with Jesus and the fellowship of my Lifegroup more than “this thing” that is happening in my life. That’s reassuring. It puts my mind at ease because I’ve been worrying about this getting bigger and taking over some of the most precious areas of my life.
And this worrying thing, which is something that I have almost completely given up over the last several months, has been all for nothing of course. Worry won’t help a thing. I know this.
We said in the beginning that we would be blogging about whatever we are going through at this point in our life. Well, this is it. Fretting and worrying about a possible business venture taking over and manipulating it’s way into the special places of my heart and life. Sometimes I think I should be medicated for being such a nut! (kidding)
Anywho, sorry to withhold the details of this new venture. You’ll be filled in when it becomes more concrete.. because, like I just said. I’ll be blogging about what’s going on in my life. I will say that I feel God’s hand in it. I feel His presence in the calming of my silly worries and guiding me to take the steps that I normally wouldn’t even consider taking on my own. It’s out of my comfort zone. WAY out.
So, that feeling of me standing out on the ledge, blindfold on, getting ready to take the step that might change the rest of my life… God’s with me on this. He’s in it… Body & Soul!
I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” ~John 16:33
I think I’ll just let Him handle it…