Pam’s Journey ~ Day: 278
Miles walked: 734
Miles remaining: 266
Days remaining: 88
Do you feel like you’re running nose to the ground, 90 miles an hour, full throttle, open choke? or is that just me lately? Running on fumes, steam, vapors, or just plain running on nothing. I’ve even been going to sleep, and I’m talking ridiculously early, but I’m just beat.
Last week was the 4th, and that meant a day off work, I was planning on relaxing and doing a bunch of nothing. Maybe see a movie, definitely take a longer walk because I would have no time constraints, maybe go through a couple piles of junk mail that I let get stacked up, and I wanted to go through some clothes in the back of my closet that I’ve been meaning to sort through… oh, I think you’re supposed to trim up your mums around the 4th of July (I’m pretty sure I read that somewhere), so I thought that I could do some garden work that has been almost nonexistent this summer, and I need to grab some paint to match the bathroom cabinet that I started painting and then I might as well paint the whole bathtub deck thing since it’s basically connected to the cabinet, and I’ve had this project in the back of my mind that I just haven’t gotten around to finish or actually to even start.. so I could just do some of that while I’m relaxing and doing a bunch of nothing, right?
Wait… Why am I beat? I think I found the problem. Me.
On the seventh day God had finished his work of creation, so He rested from all his work. ~ Genesis 2:2 NLT
Even God rested.
I’ve been trying to make a conscious effort to at least keep my Sundays clear but even a simple Sunday – wake up, walk, church, mow the yards… Now, you might be thinking that I shouldn’t mow on Sunday, right? Sunday is the day of rest. But I enjoy mowing.. love it. Mowing to me is like meditation, with the result of a pretty yard in the end. It’s like white noise that gives me an hour of uninterrupted thought or even nonthought. It’s like quiet time.
Then the day is already 1/2 over and I still have so much to do before the week starts all over again. My body is feeling the lack of rest lately. I feel good and have tons of energy when I get up, but at the end of the day, I’m flat exhausted. I’ve been asking God to give me strength and to be with me in every step and every breath, but I haven’t asked Him to be with me in my rest.
Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. ~ Matthew 11:28
This morning on my walk, I found myself humming the “Word Of God Speak”..
Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
To be still and know
That You’re in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak.
I desperately need to stay and rest in His holiness. I mentioned last week that I’ve been distracted and found that I wasn’t even doing my daily devotions some days. I need to get back to my restful time with God. My time of listening for Him. My time with Him.
Yesterday, I stayed home from work – sick.. blaming it on a pulled muscle/misaligned scapula issue. I went to the chiropractor Monday afternoon and it wouldn’t budge. So, when I woke up yesterday from a horrible nights sleep, I knew that I was no good to go to work. It was radiating through to my chest and everything hurt, even breathing. After I moped for awhile and took some anti-inflammatory medication, I laid down and prayed for rest. Let me tell you that it was the best rest that I’ve gotten in a long time and I forgot to mention that I was laying on my loveseat that I have declared the worst thing in my house to sleep on. I dozed off and on throughout the day, so I was worried that I wouldn’t be able to sleep last night. I prayed again for rest before going to bed and almost instantly fell asleep.
When I woke up this morning, I noticed two things. First, my shoulder wasn’t hurting and it didn’t hurt to breathe. Second, I was rested. My body wasn’t tired. I didn’t wake up during the night like I do so often. I had more energy on my walk. I just felt better. Rested.
I gotta tell ya, if my shoulder hadn’t been hurting so much, I never would have thought to pray for rest. I mean, I pray for everything involved in my waking hours.. but rest?
For I have given rest to the weary and joy to the sorrowing.” At this, I woke up and looked around. My sleep had been very sweet. ~ Jeremiah 31:25-26
God is good all the time.. awake and asleep.